Took a spontaneous trip to Kalamazoo today. I went to the Mac Miller concert with my roommates and it was FUN. It’s now 3am and I can’t express how happy I am to be in my own comfy bed again. Especially after 5 hours of driving.
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20 years old. Born in China, raised in California, currently living in Michigan. I post what amuses me, and I'm always down to meeting new people. I have a sarcastic sense of humor and like to post anything from funnies to fangirl to fashion to food to fucking. Basically anything that starts with an "F".
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Firstly, helllllllo new followers. There’s at least 30+. Thanks for clicking that follow button.
Secondly, life update: March is officially the worst month for me, health wise.
- I had wisdom teeth problems and a fever.
- Caught the sickness going around work.
- Got food poisoning.
- Got pink eye.
- Got another cold.
- Annnnnd getting wisdom teeth surgery on Tuesday. (Can’t wait to look like a chipmunk.)
But I dyed my hair. Yes, I know I do it often. I got red highlights around my face so you see it when I pull my hair back, but I can hide them too.
I’m reading Catching Fire right now (part of The Hunger Games series) and I’ve been watching a LOT of Blue Mountain State and Nick Swardson’s Pretend Time. Both shows are hilarious, check it out on Netflix.
That’s about it, I guess.
I miss YOU. I miss your smile. I miss your warmth. I miss your laugh. And I’m sorry for messing things up.
Overthinking, again.
So as of recent (by recent I mean the past week or so) I’ve just felt really down on myself. It’s hard to be myself when I live in a world where people play games with other people to defend their own feelings. Being honest isn’t an option anymore without getting judged or harassed. I hate feeling like I can’t talk to anyone and I’m just trapped in this life. I want to be someone important. I just don’t know what I want to do. And I hate feeling this way. It’s been a constant up and down feeling for so long and it’s hard for me to really express that part of myself. The sad part. Normally, I can express myself pretty easily but not anymore. No one gets how I feel. I’m 20 and I feel like I’m doing nothing with my life while everyone around me is going places. I have passion…I just need something constructive to put it towards.
I’m tired of feeling sad.
Now that I have a car again…
I can’t express how wonderful it feels. I feel very in control of my life now. (Literally and figuratively.)
Maybe I’ll go for a drive later to gather my thoughts. Too bad that costs approximately $3.27/gal. :/
Love.
So I guess someone passed away at Longhorn today. It was a man eating dinner with his wife, when all of a sudden he got a heart attack. His wife ended up screaming and they had to call 3 ambulances to help. They did CPR for 40 minutes and eventually took him away, but by that time he was purple and everyone staff-wise thinks he passed away.
This is the first Saturday that I haven’t been scheduled to work without requesting it off. And I miss someone dying in a booth. That’s the first time it’s ever happened in that restaurant. How weird is that?
It really makes you appreciate the people you have in your life. Love those people around you because you never know when your last day on this Earth is going to be.
Oh hellooooo fishtail braid. I can’t do it myself yet (my roommate Amara did it for me). Also, today I paid for school in full, painted my nails and did a little shopping in preparations for Christmas. :D
Clarkston High School has that one place that will always be near and dear to my heart: The Theater. I had a lovely talk with Lauren Glowski tonight about that. We both have this problem called nostalgia (sorry, Lauren) and every year I’m away I naturally think about it less and less. But when I flip through photos on Facebook of my Senior year and how I practically lived there for 9 months…the feelings came back. I write posts about how much it means to me every now and then but I’m glad to have found a place where my heart feels most comfortable and where I have some of my happiest memories. I sang my heart out on that stage for 3 years. I left a part of me on that stage, and in that room that I’ll never get back…which is perfectly okay with me. I’m by no means trying to relive my past and “want to be back in high school” because I’m pretty content with my life right now. But when you feel something so powerful and so overwhelming, it’s hard to let it go. I don’t think I necessarily want to. I love the theater, and I miss it even more.
“There’s nothing quite as dark as a blacked-out stage.”
Giving Up The Ghost - Lou Korty
Time to bitch about life!
Oooookay. Asian jokes are funny sometimes. I get that. But honestly…sometimes they’re not. And they’ve been getting on my last nerves lately. I’ve been really irritable. I don’t like feeling like everyone just likes to make fun of me. It drives me nuts sometimes.
End of rant. For now.
I want to have a long and deep conversation with someone.
Sometimes I just crave that kind of intellectual stimulation. I like getting to know people…I don’t know. Even though I’m surrounded by people all the time (AKA my roommates), I still feel lonely at times.
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